Zongyi, pianist

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Final exams' in 2 weeks! Oh god help me. ):

[*pianist__ @ 1:13 PM

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Ugr I really can't do anything right.
I got only 1 our of 4.5 bid.
Into Stats lesson sucked.
FA's un-understandable as usual.
My family still hits me.
My parents treat my sis like God (really, they believe she's the descent of a god) and me like dirt.
My parents want me to teach piano more so I can earn more money and fund my own uni fees.
The scoldings everyday at home and comparisons made to my brat sister are crazy!
I've so many meetings, so many presentations.
I really can't please anyone and everyone.
UGR!! I just..

See this poster? I'm giving a talk on 20th Century Classical Music.
There's so many composers and facts to talk about.
I don't know how I'm going to cover all.
It's Friday, and my slides still suck till now.

Ugr! I lost everything!!
I hate her coming into this world and spoiling everything!
My parents love her so much,
talk to her nicely, never hit/scold her, buy her everything she wants.
I hate it! I hate the vast difference they treat siblings.
I never thought that it'll be like that..

I'm not a grumble-pot.
Its just, there's no optimism right now.

[*pianist__ @ 10:27 PM

Saturday, October 31, 2009

After complaining about the difficulty of Accountancy,
after turning my head away from it,
after groaning at failed tests,
let's go back to it and get my A! (:

Because,
I'm in uni already,
I'm the eldest daughter,
I'm my parents' hope.
I've decided not to do music,
so Accountancy is what's left.
Failure is never never allowed.

Yesterday I gave my 1st Music Appreciation Talk on Sight-Reading for SMU Ivory Keys (Piano Ensemble) as Music Director.
I talked about how to handle Sight-Reading,
e.g. What to look at, how to shape phrases, finger techniques.
I selected audience to play and did a mass-teaching.
I felt that I did an extraordinary job, with passion and techniques.
Feedbacks were good, my peers/seniors enjoyed it! (:

[*pianist__ @ 11:06 AM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hello? Can I ask you an Accounting Q?

Recent posts are full of angst and worries.
I know this may sound immature, like wth, a uni girl is worrying about her grades when some people are struggling with debts or are disabled for life.
But in my context, things are bad. ):
I never though I'll say this, but,
I really can't do Accountancy.
I just can't make it.
I got 4/10 for my recent Test & 53/100 for my HW.
): ): ):
I don't understand most of what Prof said in class anyway.
Seniors said things'll just be 10x worst in Year 2s+.
I should just die...

[*pianist__ @ 9:38 AM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Jump! and see how high you can go. (:

What should I do?
I've too many committments.
1) Study Accountancy in SMU
2) Piano teaching
3) Piano accompaniment (Crestar)
4) Eurhythmix (SMU Hip Hop)
5) Ivory Keys Music Director (SMU Piano Ensemble)
6) Dancepointe Hip Hop Class (outside sch)
7) Preparation for Jan 2010 Esplande Piano Concert

The thing is,
I love and want to do all 7 things listed above out of my own will.
I enjoy each and everyone of it and I'm serious about all of it being part of my job in the future.
The thing is, with so many commitments,
I can't excel in anyone of them!
I'm trying to do my best in each of them but my best now is not the best I can give!
I really can't do Accountancy,
and I don't know why!
I want to do Accountancy well.

Ugr, some wise fairy godmother come down to Earth and gimme some advice.
Don't tell me give up any commitments!
It's impossible because I love them!
Don't tell me to set priorities,
because all of them are as important!
Just, gimme some magic pill so I don't have to sleep and will not have eyebags?

[*pianist__ @ 5:03 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

My hair was so long and thick in JC2.
Ugr, I swear I'm actually ageing at the age of 18.

I'm in TWC class now in SMU. (:
Seriously, I can't concentrate on Wednesday afternoons.

I feel so miserable.

I got 4/10 for FA Mid-Terms.

What the hell can, people are getting full marks.

The problem is,

I made notes, I understand most of the slides,

but when I do a Q, I get stunned.

Help me baby!

I love piano teaching,

I love my students.

The Grade 1s are going for Theory Exam on 31st Oct.

They're so ready can. Ha!

I texted my piano teacher to update her about my life.

I miss her and she wished me all the best in my music learning.

Seriously, I need people to wish me all the best in my academic learning.

[*pianist__ @ 5:02 PM

Thursday, October 8, 2009

This week is Recess Week in SMU.

Apparently we call it Recess, means a week off.

Seriously, Recess Week is crazy!

Mon: I forgot. Oops.

Tue: LTB Execution + work

Wed: LTB Execution + work

Thur: Piano teaching

Fri: Ivory Keys Meeting + CT Meeting + Piano teaching

Sat: Piano teaching + Eurythmix training

Sun: My Hip Hop performance! + Hip hop class

So my LTB group and I went to Andrew & Grace Home, Place for Troubled Teen Girls in Aljunied to build the "Cats Corner" for Pets Therapy.

Seriously, the sun is mad hot.

We didn't know how to mix the cement or lay the bricks or even use the electric saw, a kind Bangladesh worker came to help us.

We spent 2 full days completing only 50% of our work.

I've to say something:

Singapore is so lucky to have all those Bangladesh and China workers to do construction, seriously, No Singaporean will ever does those heavy work.

Never look down on those workers ok,

Laying bricks, carrying those things, mixing the correct % of cement and building a straight wall is no easy business.

Even university students like us cant saw a wood straight.

Okay, off to do night jogging.

Exercise, healthy lifestyle! (:

[*pianist__ @ 7:50 PM

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