A very overstimulated week...

Life has just been disgusting & sickening... I filed a police report due to Theft of Cash in my own condo & I am lowkey getting ick vibes eww... I swear I am going to stomp into HQ to report my immediate manager this coming week but I am prioritising my facials & massages because I truly want to maintain my beautiful face & body until the day I die.

Nothing much to update - just discovered that I have zero woman hormones in me. Literally, zero. God forbid I don't feel the motherly instinct for kids & I suspect I've never loved kids. Probably I was always an adult trapped in the body of a kid while I was young? Never took a interest in anything childish. Yet, I love to drink, party & have fun!

Politically, I am following Xi JP & Donald Trump's meetup in Beijing! I am the perfect example of a person born in China, raised at home with traditional China values, educated in school with a mix of Asian/British knowledge & partied to all of USA's songs! If I ever get to leave Singapore, I would want to stay in a small town in USA? Don't wanna die though....

I feel like some traitor when I say I kinda like Donald Trump? He has this Big Daddy kind of vibes & I DIED HHAHAHAHAHA shaking with laughter every time T makes a media appearance or speech HAHAHAHAHA he made my day!!

Missing my old-time friends...but no la, not going to catch up liao. Gonna grow up, move on & look forward.

The First Art Exhibition of the Art Talent Society (Singapore) & Yiqing Fine Art

10 Penang Road, #01-02

Dhoby Ghaut Green

Singapore 238469

Nearest MRT: Dhoby G

The Art Exhibition was spacious, beautiful & a lovely walk for audience of all ages. I was so inspired I kinda want to pursue Art? Probably won't even need to spend money I'm just gonna use M's old materials HAHAHAHA!

Always felt that Art is an excellent choice because it keeps giving as we age, similar to Piano. Piano is  probably the audio version of Art? But Art just feels more...visual & easier to compare. When you put a few Art pieces side by side, you immediately know who is a better Artist, who is just a kid genius with limited vision, & who is truly a rich ass. Because the rich ass may probably have better foundation due to unlimited time & resources.

In another dimension, I am probably rich, famous, artistic & very very very fucking talented. As for right now... I'm back to my very very very boring & hopeless AF teaching career yawns....

Send. Help. Now.

I had such busy & heavy weeks for so long.... I could never imagine my mid-30s would be what it is like right now. So many 1st-world & high-caliber problems I am facing right now... makes me happy, makes me sad, makes me anxious....most importantly, I feel...blissed!

Even in my 30s, I am still having acne....I used to be SO MAD but after a while, seniors told me that the day I stop having acne, will be the day my true ageing begin... I too don't know whether this statement is scientifically proven... but then again, doesn't Science itself also need to be proven by Science?

Just today, I faced people issues yet again. Major. Human. Problems. But I remember what one of my mentor told me - "...always know that your targeted audience for piano lessons will be the rich families..." For years, I trusted my darling Singaporeans of HDB background (Yishun, Sengkang, Hougang etc...) but I very quickly discover that Singaporeans just don't make the cut for anything that needs cultural, artistic & aristocratic backing. I trust that my maturity & calmness will bring me forward. Please pray for me!

I was just carrying some Cash the other day & guess what? My Cash got stolen in my OWN CONDO! I've told TWO FUCKING SECURITY GUARDS & I guess I need to activate my vulgarities to make things move again. I don't want to be an asshole but I guess ass situations need me to show my true monster?

Someone I cannot brush off easily - asked me for help - so I help because sometimes life offers no choice - but when that someone doesn't understand - I get boxed up verbally? I didn't give that someone any chance too. I debated back. It.was.so.fun.

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It is during days like this that I realise....I don't know? Life lessons? Last week I heard a random Father telling his Daughter, "....in life, even if you have the most amazing parent, spouse or children - you can never depend on them completely...." 

Actually, I am glad I have this old stupid Blog to gush my thoughts. I thought this Blog would be my media, my advertorial, my "wordpress" - but turns out! This Blog is my thoughts. This stupid Blog Is Me!