The First Art Exhibition of the Art Talent Society (Singapore) & Yiqing Fine Art

10 Penang Road, #01-02

Dhoby Ghaut Green

Singapore 238469

Nearest MRT: Dhoby G

The Art Exhibition was spacious, beautiful & a lovely walk for audience of all ages. I was so inspired I kinda want to pursue Art? Probably won't even need to spend money I'm just gonna use M's old materials HAHAHAHA!

Always felt that Art is an excellent choice because it keeps giving as we age, similar to Piano. Piano is  probably the audio version of Art? But Art just feels more...visual & easier to compare. When you put a few Art pieces side by side, you immediately know who is a better Artist, who is just a kid genius with limited vision, & who is truly a rich ass. Because the rich ass may probably have better foundation due to unlimited time & resources.

In another dimension, I am probably rich, famous, artistic & very very very fucking talented. As for right now... I'm back to my very very very boring & hopeless AF teaching career yawns....

Send. Help. Now.

I had such busy & heavy weeks for so long.... I could never imagine my mid-30s would be what it is like right now. So many 1st-world & high-caliber problems I am facing right now... makes me happy, makes me sad, makes me anxious....most importantly, I feel...blissed!

Even in my 30s, I am still having acne....I used to be SO MAD but after a while, seniors told me that the day I stop having acne, will be the day my true ageing begin... I too don't know whether this statement is scientifically proven... but then again, doesn't Science itself also need to be proven by Science?

Just today, I faced people issues yet again. Major. Human. Problems. But I remember what one of my mentor told me - "...always know that your targeted audience for piano lessons will be the rich families..." For years, I trusted my darling Singaporeans of HDB background (Yishun, Sengkang, Hougang etc...) but I very quickly discover that Singaporeans just don't make the cut for anything that needs cultural, artistic & aristocratic backing. I trust that my maturity & calmness will bring me forward. Please pray for me!

I was just carrying some Cash the other day & guess what? My Cash got stolen in my OWN CONDO! I've told TWO FUCKING SECURITY GUARDS & I guess I need to activate my vulgarities to make things move again. I don't want to be an asshole but I guess ass situations need me to show my true monster?

Someone I cannot brush off easily - asked me for help - so I help because sometimes life offers no chance - but when that someone doesn't understand - I get boxed up verbally? I didn't give that someone any chance too. I debated back. It.was.so.fun.

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It is during days like this that I realise....I don't know? Life lessons? Last week I heard a random Father telling his Daughter, "....in life, even if you have the most amazing parent, spouse or children - you can never depend on them completely...." 

Actually, I am glad I have this old stupid Blog to gush my thoughts. I thought this Blog would be my media, my advertorial, my "wordpress" - but turns out! This Blog is my thoughts. This stupid Blog Is Me!

I always lack confidence in human relationships. I hate all relationships. I AM AUTISTIC! Yet, I am an extrovert... UGRRRR! Anyway, I Hate Humans!!!

But something today - completely changed my mind.

My friend - pretty close, but definitely never overstepping any boundaries - grew up with speech issues (problem pronouncing certain alphabets) & autism - managed to not only overcome all her issues. She even manage to become some fucking therapist & is now helping others??!!!

And here I am - still blogging in this outdated platform...

Actually, nothing is impossible in this world. We all just need a little support here and there, every now and then. Some of us need intense treatment, some of us need a mindset reform, others simply need to cry it out.

For me, I just need to be by myself. I lowkey suspect I am an introvert actually.

I feel like I want to do more Accompaniment & Performing jobs? Of course these jobs are already scarce in the pathetic Singapore & I know close circles and connections matter a lot... But I feel like I'm ready to transit from teaching to accompaniment? I've been teaching sooo longgg & I just discovered that I actually don't enjoy human relationships...kinda miss the whole point of teaching isn't it? Feeling like a loser...

Oh well - cheers to myself? A pat on my back? Hope I can find a good balance in my life.

I have one good news for myself though - NO BLOODY ACNE ON MY FACE FOR TONIGHT!!!