These few weeks have been crazy but I finally managed to perform more self-regulation of my emotions & mental illness on my own. What I really need, is the beach & grass. More of the beach really, or anything, anything with nature, anything more natural for my very uncomfortable self.

Do you sometimes feel that life is a party? I know I am a mf crazy party animal. You just know what you are, isn't it. Even though I am dealing with adult matters now (hopefully - I never know how childish I am until I find out on my own), I always feel that my head is stuck IN MY 20s. If I need to be more specific, I am stuck between ages 27 to 29. I can't pinpoint which year. There is a year, where I am mentally stuck at. RAAAA what is happeningggggg....

GUYS if I have to verbalise something it is THE NEW ABRSM SYLLABUS what is happening there are Afro vibes in it??!!! 2 years ago, the pop and theatre pieces already gave us all a mini scare, but to really advance from Classical & to even mix in...MORE? I still feel that anything on piano should probably stay Baroque, Classical, Romantic, 20th Century, I mean - I CAN ACCEPT POP but the pop must be classical arranged, or rather, re-arranged for piano students AHHHH can someone shake ABRSM awake?

If I may - I started a 2nd Youtube Channel - away from my piano channel, would you kindly support me HERE please?

Something is BOTHERING me...well, many things are bothering me. Either I choose to stick to it, let it go, or trash it out. Different matters require different approaches..... I have this ick I cannot verbalise but I feel it FML what is happening again???!!!

Let's go to the beach HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA