Ego

Today was supposed to be an average day for me, running my usual chores & teaching students here-and-there. But, I just feel, like I discovered something!

I think I finally understood why students can suffer from poor practice schedule, stunned technique growth & years of ridiculous musical errors - despite being told the pathway to excellence.

It is definitely - EGO.

My choir friend once told me that I have zero ego. That was back in my teenage years. I thought I was a quick learner - with photographic memory & a likable personality. Turns out the secret to my success (at least years ago) - was due to myself having no ego!

Damn - recently I think I developed some ego, known as The Teacher's Ego.

SHIT!!! I feel like I am right, I feel like I deserve to comment on certain people's certain behaviour because I feel like I know better. But do I really? I doubt I truly know better. I think I am blinded by my own ego!

SHIT SHIT SHIT time to kill my fucking EGO! I give myself one month! If I still have any ounce of ego by the end of April, I WILL FUCK YOU ALL!